I don’t care what kind of blog I have I will blog this no matter what.

"Craving sensation: feeling unreal" was such a huge part of the beginning of my relapse. I was convinced that people in front of me didn’t even exist and I kept touching things and trying to feel sensation. I’m reblogging because I know that that was so horrifying for me and I never want anyone else to go through it. 

In case someone needs to see this

Just in case this can help someone. Some suggestions also seem harmful (eating a hot pepper really hurts!!!) but steps to feeling better and not self harming is most important. Sending you love and light

Who is this post supposed to be for?

"Want to see blood"
"Draw on yourself with a red felt pen"

I literally did that Obama thing.

Ok, I don’t think the people who made those images and the person who made this post really understands self- harm, like, it’s not just about being angry, or “wanting to see blood”, it goes way beyond that.

I’m also not entirely sure what the “craving sensation” has to do with “feeling unreal”, maybe i’m misunderstanding it or something.

Just one more thing, I don’t think writing on yourself with a pen will release all that many endorphins but, i might be wrong, feel free to try it for yourself.

I did a few of these and they helped a lot.

Sometimes people crave sensation because they need to feel like they exist (or for other reasons). It’s hard to explain but sometimes I just need to feel something. 

I haven’t tried writing on myself yet but I could always give it a try instead of using ice. 

Ok, I think I know what you mean, though I can’t say I understand since I’ve never felt that way.

Ice is one thing cause ice fucking hurts, but writing on yourself? Unless you’re jabbing the pen in your arn or something I don’t see that helping at all, at least not on itself.

The best thing for me is having some one on one time with my shitty punching bag, without gloves, it’ll release all the energy you have in you, and if you want some pain that’ll fuck you up as well, not that i’m condoning self-harm, i’m just saying, it’s pretty good.

work outs are a great way to release energy. The punching bag without gloves sounds like a really good idea, I’m gonna have to try that some time.

Ice doesn’t really hurt all that much - but maybe that’s only because I live in a place thats -40 about 60% of the time and am used to the cold. The ice helps because you get the sensation and as it melts it just….it kinda takes the worries away.

I’m gonna ask around about the writing part to see why it would be helpful.  It’s always nice to have another view on things and all that :3 

I’ve only been close to relapse once in the last few years but the one time that I did I completely covered the areas that I normally harmed at with song lyrics in black sharpies. It depends on what the person needs. It kept me from harming, so, in my opinion there’s no reason someone shouldn’t try it.

# self harm tw # self injury tw


in remembrance of the light lost today, and all those before this tragic death, i wanted to put together some resources for those carrying the weight of addiction:

this is of course by no means an exhaustive list. there are many helpful resources in the world and this is just a small example. community action programs, local government agencies, social service offices, and united way locations can often provide local resources as well.

you aren’t alone.
you deserve love and wellness.
you are important.

# overdose tw # drugs tw # addiction tw # addiction resources # resources # death tw



you see these binders? They may not look much, but these fucking things bind like the CHAINS OF HELL THEMSELVES. I’ve got HUGE tits, up in the DD range, but this simple little binder works some goddamn MAGIC on them. It’s comfortable, it binds, it provides perfect support and whatever the hell else. 

What’s the catch though, right? They’re probably super expensive?


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reblogged from alphagroudon - originally from kettugasm

# trans* issues # binders # signal boosting


I’ve compiled this list of resources to help trans* people like myself. Even if you’re not trans* and/or can’t use any of this, please reblog for the sake of others. Thanks!


The Tumblr Transgender Clothes Exchange
How to Take Measurements
Reflectore Voice Pitch Tracker

The FTM’s Complete Illustrated Guide to Looking Like a Hot Dude
The Male Fashion Fit Guide
AK’s Guide to Suits (this is a drawing guide, but contains useful info)
Throat Exercise to Deepen Voice
Big Brother Binder Repository & Re-Disbursement Program
In a Bind Binder Donations
Underworks Pullover Binders
Les Love Boat Binders, Packers, Underwear, Shoe Lifts, Etc.
Cheap Clasp Binder
Discreet STP Device

Women’s Clothing Terminology
Tucking How-to Guide
Realistic Breast Form Tutorial
The Breast Form Store
Mastectomy Bras with Built In Flap for Breast Forms
How to Contour and Highlight Using Makeup

How to Apply Eyeliner with a Spoon

How to Apply Foundation
How to Apply Blush
How to Apply Eyeshadow

National Suicide Prevention Lifeline
IMAlive Online Crisis Network

Transgender Housing Network

National Center for Transgender Equality
Transgender Law Center
Change your Name for Free - Civil Indigent Status (Tumblr post)
Copwatch Infographic Guide

Transgender Surgeons in the U.S.
Center of Excellence for Transgender Health
FTM Hormone Guide
FTM Surgery Guide
MTF Hormone Guide
MTF Surgery Guide

Mcalc Gender Neutral Menstruation Calculator

Mental + Support
Online Gender Therapy (can also issue letters of recommendation)
Emotional Baggage Check
TransSpace Reddit

School + Education
Trans Student Equality Resources
Study Abroad for GLBT Students
Applying to College as a Non-Binary Trans* Person

Additional Resources
Susan’s Place Transgender Resources and Forums
Laura’s Playground Transgender Resources

# trans* issues # resources



Sorry it’s really wordy, but I wanted to make sure i wasn’t being too vague, but at the same time I also feel like i was not thorough enough with some of these topics. Either way, this is just all from my standpoint so feel free to correct me if i got something wrong. or if you have any questions feel free to ask, but just keep in mind i am only one person, and not an all-knowing encyclopedia so i may not always have answers for everyone and some things are better left answered by other people.


# cishets # racism # transphobia # opression

Pansexuality vs Bisexuality Debate

Back when I previously had identified as pansexual, I facilitated a workshop on pansexuality, and in doing so, did some research into bisexuality as a way to differentiate the two. Below is the definition i developed for pansexuality, as well as examples  of definitions of bisexuality that I collected from various members who identified that way.


The capacity to be romantically and sexually attracted to someone regardless of biological sex  organs, or gender identity.

Bisexuality definitions as defined by actual living bisexual people:

“Not completely split between liking guys and girls. It’s mostly who I like the best.  Generally speaking: Cismale, Cisfemale. Balance between the two; has a leaning towards one side. (Guys who act like guys, and girls who act like girls)”
“LOOSE. Bisexual before understanding gender concepts. Not cis male/female; Gender identity.  or Gender Queer. Just BECAUSE THEY CAN.” (Condensed: Some of the gender identities, not all of them.”
“I can literally 50/50 go either way. Be attracted to a man or a woman. Strictly a man or a woman.”
“Covers gender binary shit. Attracted to the same gender as you and the people who are not the same gender as you.”
“Two Genders: Cis men and transwomen.” – Someone’s specific definiton of their sexuality
These definitions contain some #cissexist and #binarist language but are direct quotes from people that I had asked.
Also casual reminder that I am a huge proponent of defining your own labels and not feeling pressured to adhere to a label, or to not use one, because the society expectations for that label don’t seem to 100% fit you!

# pan vs bi # sexuality # thoughts # binarist language - # cissexist language -





friendly reminder that the accepted definition of bisexuality by the bisexual community is: liking the same and other genders. The definition is not: Liking cis men and women. Thank you.

1000 times this.

I know I’m gonna sound like an ignorant dumbass but in light of this new information, I’m confused about what the definition of pansexual is now. I thought that’s what pansexual was :/

Pansexual indicates that you are also attracted to people who do not identify with either binary gender; whereas bisexual means both binary genders.

Hate to jump in here, but just to clarify, bisexuality does not exclude non-cis/non-binary identities. Bisexuality is also defined 100% by the person who identifies with it. It is typically used to denote attraction to ones own gender and one other (2 total), whereas pansexuality is used to denote attraction to all genders.

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# pan vs bi # lgbtq+ issues

it kind of just dawned on me that stalking isn’t a funny thing to joke about because stalkers aren’t a joke they’re very real and very scary and not to be joked about because especially for people who have/have had a stalker, it’s not a funny experience.

# stalking # not funny



words cannot express how much i’d like to see the lgbt*qia*p acronym replaced

  • most of the public only says lgbt which is really really limited
  • theres a lot of confusion over what the a* stands for (hint it’s not allies but people seem to think it is! sigh)
  • it’s really! really long! and it’s awkward to say and type 
  • it doesnt include a lot of identities!
  • it leaves room for cishet people to shove their way in

something like gsm (gender and sexual minorities) would be ssooooo mcuh better

  • theres no confusion over who’s included in this group (everyone who isnt straight and cis is a minority), cishet people are rightfully excluded
  • it’s an “umbrella” term; people whose queer identities are not in the old acronym don’t have to feel excluded 
  • it’s really concise! it’s way easier to say and type and you dont have to worry about excluding people by which version you use
  • also easier for people to remember 

like. let’s do this. let’s make it happen. please 

Gender, Sexual, and Romantic Minorities


+ Not a super long acronym.

+ No room for cishets.

+ No “A for ALLIES!”

+ Includes all minority gender identities, such as trans*, bigender, genderfluid.

+ Includes all minority sexualities, such as bisexuality, asexuality, pansexuality.

+ Includes all romantic minorities, such as panromantic, aromantic, homoromantic.

The problem with this acronym has come from cishet people in a kink lifestyle who feel they are a ‘sexual minority’. :(

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# trans* issues